Finding pictures of me to share isn’t easy. If I see you coming at me with a camera I tend to disappear. I may be built like a rhinoceros, but keep in mind they can move pretty quickly when they feel threatened. Nothing makes me feel more threatened than having my picture taken. They say the camera adds 10 pounds, and the sad thing is you wouldn’t notice a 10 pound difference on me. But I did manage to find a recent picture to include. Apparently my friends delight in waiting till I am not looking and snapping my picture with their iPhones.
This was taken on Thanksgiving Day 2009 and while I do look a bit different now, I don’t think I have substantially changed that much.
What am I doing you ask? Simple… I am getting ready to crank up a deep fat fryer with 4 gallons of oil and drop a turkey in it. I convinced all my skinny friends that it just wouldn’t be Thanksgiving with out deep frying something and they all fell for it.
THE STATISTICS:
Age: 49 Years, 8 Months, 8 Days
Height: 5’9” tall
Weight on 12/16/09: 310 pounds, with my clothes on. I will post official updates as they occur.
Goal Weight: 170 – 175 pounds
Blood Pressure: 140/98 on average with blood pressure medications. (Not great, not as bad as it has been)
Waist Size: 50. I can squeeze into a 48 waist but I can’t feel my feet when I do.
The Things You Probably Don’t Want to Know: (Sorry Mom…I said I would be honest!)
Sexual Orientation: Gay
Relationship Status: Single
Mental Health Issues: Compulsive Overeater and recovering drug addict – Clean Date 1/25/10
Treatment: Outpatient Rehab (Drugs) June 2007 : Eating Disorder Center December 2009 : Therapy – Ongoing
Medical Conditions: High Blood Pressure, Joint Pain, Intermittent Allergic Rashes
Why I am telling you this? It’s all part of the story and if I am going to be honest I am NOT going to tap dance around some things. I want to say that I am telling you because I don’t care what you think, but I would be lying. My self esteem will probably be directly tied to my visitor counter for awhile which gives my therapist job security. So I do care what you think. But if you are going to jump ship because of any of the above information then now’s the time to do it. This ship is about to set sail.
Did I tell you everything? Nope. Some things just aren’t relevant.
Aren’t you being hard on yourself? Good question. Sometimes I am incredibly hard on myself. Clearly there have been major gaps where I don’t hold myself accountable to anything. What I am trying to be is honest from my perspective.